Wednesday, October 9, 2019

DON'T ASK ME

****Nightmare****
One two three,
They know this mystery.
True believer have gone insane,
In the sun's sunshine and in this rain.
Swirling wind have got you dear,
Try to escape and you will be nowhere.
The more you will try to get out,
It will squeez you so much that you can't shout.
Even if you somehow make an escape,
It will drag you back to this cave.



I woke up feeling my heart will pop out at any moment. I saw that nightmare again. It is making me go insane. I don't know how many nights I have to take those sleeping pills. I don't want to close my eyes every nights.  Even bed and pillows are growing like monster to me. A fear already started to grip me in arms. What If I sleep , they will pull me down to that ocean of nightmare and I may sink for forever. Every day I keep saying to myself that this will not come tonight. Every night I end up with fear of sleeping and taking at last those pills. I don't know if I will ever get out of this. I wonder if somehow I get to know the way to escape. I wonder if any magic or medicine could end it, erase it from my memory. It was never like this. Only if I could have known about this coming nightmares.  Only if.