A WALK

*Walk to the  Nightmare*

I woke up before dawn, but I have no idea when did I fell asleep. Without thinking about everything that happened at night, I went to the bathroom and got ready for a dawn walk. It was still dark. I saw through curtain of window, street lights were on. I put on jogging dress as usually, a jacket and  never forget ears muffs to safeguard myself from chilly breeze. Locking the door, I went out and took a deep breath. I don't know which path I took, because all paths are inter connected. I kept walking. It was better than bed. Chilly wind stopped and dawn touch the sky. I was admiring the sky and my eyes gazing all around saw the building. I was never meant to come here. The night was bad but dawn is worst. And with this view I felt thousands of knives peirced through my heart at once. I was frozen, I was taken aback. I felt so many things like those trees were staring at me. I wonder if these trees were feeling sorry for me or angry. When the first ray of light reached ground, it gave me warm feel that I am fine. I kept walking forward and never dared to see back. I was looking at my footsteps and forgot to see the green scenerio around. I forgot that I was walking up and down of hill turning left and right.  Hade was coming towards me and said, ''Another sleepless night Ariana?'' 

''hm.. It's just I needed some air'', said I pretending all ok. 

He smirked and hugged me expressing sympathy, ''You may lie to me, but how can you lie to yourself?"
"I.... I have to go now. I will meet you at your cafe"
"Bye honey"
"Bye"
I kept walking up the hill on a small path. I saw moutain behind my house which was covered with clouds. I went inside the room. 

DON'T ASK ME

****Nightmare****
One two three,
They know this mystery.
True believer have gone insane,
In the sun's sunshine and in this rain.
Swirling wind have got you dear,
Try to escape and you will be nowhere.
The more you will try to get out,
It will squeez you so much that you can't shout.
Even if you somehow make an escape,
It will drag you back to this cave.



I woke up feeling my heart will pop out at any moment. I saw that nightmare again. It is making me go insane. I don't know how many nights I have to take those sleeping pills. I don't want to close my eyes every nights.  Even bed and pillows are growing like monster to me. A fear already started to grip me in arms. What If I sleep , they will pull me down to that ocean of nightmare and I may sink for forever. Every day I keep saying to myself that this will not come tonight. Every night I end up with fear of sleeping and taking at last those pills. I don't know if I will ever get out of this. I wonder if somehow I get to know the way to escape. I wonder if any magic or medicine could end it, erase it from my memory. It was never like this. Only if I could have known about this coming nightmares.  Only if. 

Its happening

Well, I thought life would be easy after school. No exams, no tensions about scoring. I was wrong. Yeah. Life is taking exams now. I mean come on, what is going on. Life is all about exam. Real exam. Sometime its difficult to handle but have to find way. Even job is not working. I mean you get paid but now you want to go back to school days. Now you realise school was about no worries. 

I am just struck to nowhere. I miss something. I lost many things. Seems like I am on the track but I don't know where to go. May be I am lamenting. May be because I have seen worse and lamenting about what I left behind but I know I have to walk. I can't stand and stare what is gone faded.

Its happening. 

BAZINGA BLOG ONE : ZERO IN MATHS
The number 0 (zero) changed so much in mathematics. It appeared as a blessing and hope like you get something from nothing. Zero means nothing that is an absence of other values.It plays a central role in mathematics as the identity element of the integers, real numbers, and many other algebraic structure. The invention of Zero brought massive change and ease in mathematics.
About the discovery and invention of Zero, as in sources, different types of symbols were mentioned as Zero in ancient time. From Maayan to Euclids, the number zero was indicated as dot symbol or blank.  Aryabhatta made aware that there exist a number zero . Today we use symbol '0' as zero. The word zero comes through the Arabic literal translation of the sanskrit śūnya ( शून्य ), meaning voidor empty, vacant.The rules governing the use of zero appeared for the first time in the book Brahmasputha Siddhanta written in 628 by Brahmagupta (598-670).
Now the horror part about zero. Imagine a math without zero. World without zero. That will be like a  world without algebra, arithmetic, decimal, account, physical quantity, boundary between negative and positive. Not so horrible? No zero means a world without computers! Zero is a hero. yeahhhh!!!

WHO AM I?

Living in Assam, belonging to a middle class family and prefer to stay alone at home and reading is my hobby. That is who I am. Or in short introvert. So I wanted to write and share my writing with everyone. I use to keep diary but writing in diary is like you keep it so much close and no one knows about you. Even your close one does not know, so, thats total waste of ink. 

Anyway, I started reading stories from 6th grade and I took it seriously. It grew into hobby. From Panchtantra to Harry Potter my childhood grew up. Unfortunately, I could not complete Harry potter series due to some problems. When I was in 12th standard, "The Canterville Ghost'' by Oscar Wilde, fueled my imagination to read novels. I picked up few romance but I wanted something more in genre. I switched to Sherlock holmes and so the tale begins. Mystery, crime, thrill and suspense interested me more. And so I am here with chilling stories and crimes. 

This is my first blog. I hope whoever is reading will like it  or more, love it! So I decided to write blog because I feel to share  whatever is happening with me or around me in written form. So yeah, I am here.  In my next blog I will introduce myself. Now I am going to see how it works. tadaaaa 😄