Hear Me Out

Hear Me Out

We sink, we never move on. Last time I was happy, genuinely , when I saw the moon above going with me wherever I went. I was fascinated and bewildered with this thing that was happening. 

The realization got me paralized instead of awakening that so called "Inner self". That was just a kind of , can be said as, illussion.  I just want to go back to that me where I know nothing about realization. Fireflies were better than people. I thought, I will grow up as an adult and do whatever I want. Seems like , that was not the plan. 

I got into a pond of boundary, then I was given to go with the flow in the river, I thought sailing through sea would be best to explore the world and got forever stuck into the ocean when I tried to dive deep thinking it would be a marvelous adventure of once in a lifetime. 

Now, I am stuck like I sank into the water. If I ever want to speak, it will be impossible. It can kill me by filling up my lungs and the heaviness will drag me into the deepest trench. I just have to pretend to be a mermaid. 

A mermaid can move atleast but that is imaginary. I can move in imagination. The water in which I am right now is full of responsibilities along with judgements.  Responsibilities makes us to be reasonable and accountable while judgements of others makes us immovable. 

I cannot control the jugements but then I realized I can swim across and prioritize responsibilities to be reasonable and accountable as I should be for the sake of my own life. Judgements are going to be passed whether we valour or hide like a coward. I prefer triumph will taste better than regretting later. 

Move On

People move on.

People move on and get along with new moments, vanish like a magician like nothing happened. There can be no pretend to move on. No. 

Few wait,

wait a little in the hope,

few who were tormented to view their world falling apart,

A few gave up but could not move on.

How does it come as living with a scar?

There is no scar. Scars heal, don't they? 

I will say, "Die everyday with memories "

Memories, coming as some sort of sharp knife. Again and again.

What kind of memories break the ribs and push like a dagger through the heart? 

Aren't memories made to cherish and sooth? 

-@brewingblogging

Embracing the new Void

All I could remember is they gave me anasthesia and performed D&C procedure also known as Dilatation and Curettage process , in medical words a surgical procedure in which the cervix (lower, narrow part of the uterus) is dilated (expanded) so that the uterine lining (endometrium) can be scraped with a curette (spoon-shaped instrument) to remove remaining tissues of unborn who could not make it. In my words, it was letting go of newborn feelings of expecting and unborn feelings of post expectation. Even the void was felt as if filled with unexpressed everything that could have happened. Those instagram pages which was subscribed for tips and guide during pregnancy haunted me. The pop ups on my tracker app was squeezing my heart. We grew a feeling of something new, which turned into habit and departed leaving the numbness. 

All these are now gone and cannot be brought back. The pages don't haunt me anymore, the tracker is reset back to normal and the numbness is left with a new void that made a place to settle which was never there before. While depression held me in a cage, I realised on perspective of rational thinking, I can make a choice. A choice to embrace the new feeling that left me ajar for new beginning. 

My heart goes for those who went through such  trauma , any trauma but silently suffering. Which is absolutely fine because sometimes we alone need to take a stand to hold ourselves and no one can help in doing so.

Thank you for reading❣️

Thank you my beloved husband for all the efforts and love you shower always. 

A Part Of Mine

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Jubeda

If You Want to be You, Be.

 IF YOU WANT TO BE YOU, BE.

If you want to be a sailor,

But you are afraid of failure,

Fail, against the strongest sea storms,

Because you'll not learn to sail in the proms.

If you want to be a princess

But you are afraid to fight for fortress,

Fight, against the swords raised to bleed you,

Because you'll not learn swordmanship in cocoon.

If you want to be you,

But you are afraid of others'  hue,

Others will not be your rainbow and sunshine,

Be your own self and you'll be fine.

And so, if you want to be you , be.

Through A Screen

The world is upgrading and so it is important to stay connected, upgrade and keep transforming. Changing is the ultimate fact. Improvise, adapt and overcome  is the fact that is ignored by most of us and we are left behind.

Through a screen and single click it is possible to travel and acquire knowledge. Through a screen you can build your own portfolio and fulfil the need of both.

The contemporary world needs few skills for working with you, 

1. The demand of technology led to demand of web development, graphic designs, Computer Applications knowledge, computer programming language, Python. 

2. Technological demand also requires communication skills, language fluency skills, writing skills, critical thinking ability and so on. 

3. It demands from you a strong and efficient portfolio to match with them. 

4. Time consuming sort of ideas and things are left behind. A person who is willing to work offline or online needs to have knowledge of this upgraded world where you run along with time. 

5. Through desktop, laptop and even mobile it is possible to connect with the world and seek beyond what you know. 

Some useful apps make it possible to connect. 

1. Internshala  : Click here to connect with internshala training, get training and internship of minimum 2k INR to 20k INR and certificate along with recommendation letter. GO TO INTERNSHALA!

2. Canva application allows you to design cover letters, envelopes, book cover page, cards and lot more. Canva can be used in both phone and PCs

3. Blogger.com is a best way to start writing on a beginner level for creative writing.

4. Wordpress.com and wordpress.org allows you to explore more while writing as well as webpage building and commercializing your website.

5. Fiverr, Upwork, LinkedIn , Internshala and so on allows you to connect with companies and earn few bucks as freelancer. You can use tool like Canva to build a resume and Internshala to learn certified courses to build a strong resume.

6. Bing webmaster, Google analytics, Google Adsense can be useful tool to analyse your web page progress and commercializing.

  

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I SEE YOUR SHRINKING BRAIN

It might be alarming to you but do you know that your brain shrunk 10% compare to your ancestor who lived 40 thousand years ago. Well you must not be sad because you are still ahead of your Neanderthals cousin. Neanderthals' brain size were smaller than you. Congratulations. 

Talking about shrinking of your brain, there are many reasons like diet, climate, environment, diseases and so on. There is also another peculiar  reason that is more often discussed among anthropologists and paleoanthropologists is the shift on depending of your way of survival with compare to you ancestors. Your brain is a complex nervous system and it carries various vital functions for your survival. However there used to be other vital functions  of brain which are no longer required by you. 

You are now dependent,  if not fully but at large scale on technology. You do not require to know the location of where or when any kinds of edibles are found as because you are not the primary one to fetch your food. You do not require to have the minimum knowledge about the movement of Planets, Constellations, Polaris, Wind, River Flow and so on because you have the Global Navigation Satellite Systems. 

Such and many more functions are no more stored in your memory or  not required to store because of which there is decrease in size of the brain. 

It might be painful to you but some experts related to this subject consider you are getting dumber.

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